To the Editor
I would like to take this opportunity to publicly apologize to all persons I’ve harmed due to bad decisions I’ve made throughout my life.
My thought process has been clouded by extensive drug use, causing me to become selfish and self-centered, not caring about anyone’s feelings except my own. This is not me, and I hate the person that addiction has turned me into.
I think back to life before drugs consumed my every thought, those were good times, memories I cherish.
The decisions I’ve made and the actions I took had no reflection as to how I was raised, and anyone who knows my family knows that I’m being honest. I had (in my opinion) the best childhood anyone could ask for, great parents who instilled great morals and values into me at a very young age.
Work hard for what you want, don’t take anything that doesn’t belong to you, strive to always have a good name, and treat others exactly how you want to be treated. I’ve always been good at shifting blame in every direction except where it needed to be, not wanting to accept responsibility for my actions, but today as I sit here in prison, reality has rattled my cage (if you will) and allowed me to see that no-one is to blame but me.
My Mom is a true believer in what the Bible says: "Train a child in the way he should go and later in life they will not depart from it."
I’m in my seventh year of incarceration, and being drug free has allowed me to see things.
In so many years, I’ve only existed, so I ask myself, why am I still here? The only answer I can come up with is God has a purpose for my life. He hasn’t given up on me, so it’s time I stop existing and start living.
God has laid it heavy on my heart to ask for forgiveness to any person or person’s face to face and ask, and God’s willing will get that chance. But we are not promised tomorrow. I know that it will be hard for people to forget and I accept that, I’m just asking you to forgive. That’s what God requires of me.
Thank you and God Bless, Sincerely,